Author Archives: Alan Ilagan

Taking Stock in the Snow

Andy was just realizing that his Dad has only been gone about 8 months. It seemed so long ago, and so far away. The summer was reaching its zenith. The world looked vastly different. Strange, the way these things come back to us. It felt a little sadder hearing him talk about it, now that it was winter, now that there was no pool or sun or lawn to distract. All I could do was put a bouquet of stock on the counter in the hopes of cheering him a bit. 

Winter is tricky that way. When the fall of snow levels everything, and the vista goes blank, there is nothing to do but face your own thoughts and memories. Andy seems to be doing all right, but I know he misses his father. It comes in waves, like bands of snow in the winter. Sometimes it’s thick and heavy, sometimes slight but sharp. Always, a chill and a pang of heartache. 

The happy part, though, is that we still recall the little things he did to make us laugh. In that way, he’s still around. In spring or summer, we’ll take a trip to the Saratoga Auto Museum and make a little homage to the place where he and Andy always had some father and son time. The trees will have leafed out by then, and the flowers will be in bloom. Until then, these stock blooms will have to keep the cheer. 

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Olympic Spotlight: Madison Chock & Evan Bates

The American ice dancing team of Madison Chock and Evan Bates were poised for medal contention after their beautiful short program, but suffered a shocking fall in their free program. Their heartbreak was apparent at the end of it, they both appeared overcome with angst, and with perfectly understandable reason. 

There are some people who watch and wait for the falls in figure skating, then there are the people who have half a heart and some decency. I don’t like seeing anyone fall or fail, but it’s always interesting to see what people will do after it happens. Will they pick themselves up again and keep trying? Will it stall them momentarily, requiring a recovery period? Or will it fell them forever, robbing them of any future? 

Chock and Bates looked a bit shocked when it happened, but they picked themselves up and completed the program. At the end there were some tears, but they had the audience, and the world, suddenly behind them. Messages of support and encouragement flooded their social media accounts. They ended up sending out words of thanks for all that they had received. It was a lesson in life.

That’s the measure of a true Olympian. 

That’s the grace of an amazing human being. 

Every Olympic games has a moment that stays with me and resonates for some reason. This may be that moment for me, and it’s an inspiration. 

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Albany at the Break of Dawn

My love/hate affair with Albany has been on the lovey-dovey side of late and that continues with this ode to the beauty of a Capital Region morning. As we enter the final stages of winter, the light begins to get brilliant. One of the only benefits of the dark season is that with the bare branches of stripped trees, nothing blocks the sun, when the clouds are away, from shining in all its splendor. Rooms and nooks that are otherwise shaded by leafy canopy are brighter than they are at the height of summer. It’s a small recompense.

Here, we witness the striking rise of the sun, and the amber glow of a city awaking to a bright and sunny day. Ordinary buildings turn extraordinary in the golden first light. It happens quickly, and soon the warmer palate is hardened into something bright and unforgiving. But for this first instant of the day, we have beauty. Delicate, fiery and fleeting beauty.

If we’re lucky, the day will end in the same way.

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Olympic Spotlight: Thomas Ulsrud

As the skip of the Norwegian curling team, Thomas Ulsrud is known for his funky pants, but fans and visitors of this website are probably looking for something that showcases Mr. Ulsrud out of those crazy pants. To that end, I give you this post. The Winter Olympics are featuring Ladies Figure Skating right now; consider this your alternative programming. (Shout-out to Trish for the request!)

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Olympic Spotlight: Zach Donohue

The Shib Sibs may get all the online glory, but they are neck-and-neck (and neck-and-neck) with the other American team in Ice Dancing, one half of which is made up of Zach Donohue who gets this hunky spotlight moment on the night they are all competing for the gold. 

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Bobsleigh Butts & Another Mid-Olympic Recap

Programming Note: this blog usually goes dark on Tuesday and Wednesday, but given the Olympics, there may be some additional hunky posts on those days this week. Stay tuned… until then, the traditional Monday night recap delves into the previous few days. 

It turn out, that Wednesday dark day was also suspended last week with this Valentine’s Day post. Love is all around. 

Adam Rippon remains the stand-out star of these Winter Olympics. 

Finding the way Thru. Or vice versa. 

Blue sky.

Stirrings in the night of winter

A winter dinner party planned, and executed perfectly

A tale of two scarves

Albany Egg.

At long last, Tom Ford’s underwear. (It’s growing on me.)

The sound of Cigarettes After Sex.

Olympic Spotlights shone on Javier FernándezJorik Hendrickx and Scott Moir.

Hunks of the Day included some of the Olympic variety, with a few notable exceptions: Morgan CiprèsJoey McIntyre, Michael Lucas and Brad Hall.

Finally, a newsworthy bearer of heat: Hunk of the Day Paul Caiano

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The Dinner Party Denouement

The promise of a dinner party fills some with dread, and others with exhilaration. I’m in the latter camp, so when I suggested (read: mandated) that my brother have one to christen his new house, I was very excited that he agreed. His girlfriend Landrie helped him pull off a lovely evening in the midst of an oncoming winter snowfall, and it was as cozy and comfy as one could have wished. 

The menu was all comfort food, and the cocktail was the Blushing Betty. The company was relaxed and fun. The music was Ella. It was a wonderful way to pass a winter night. 

 

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Olympic Spotlight: Scott Moir

As one half of the Canadian figure skating team competing for a medal in Ice Dancing, this is Scott Moir, who will do his best to twizzle to the gold tonight. For me, the best part of the ice dancing is the selection of outfits. Figure skating is, as a general rule, the place for flash and pizzazz, and ice dancers embrace that more than any other genre. As for Mr. Moir, he and his partner Tessa Virtue were the Olympic champions in 2010, and the silver medalists in 2014. That’s flashy enough in itself. 

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Too Dreamy: Cigarettes After Sex

Jacob Tomsky has been a hero to me ever since he released ‘Heads in Beds‘, a behind-the-scenes run-down of the hotel hospitality industry that was more gripping than it had any right to be (unless you’re obsessed with hotels the way I am). His wit and roughly-hewn good looks landed him a semi-tongue-in-cheek Hunk of the Day honor back when we did those here, which I’m guessing he was mortified but part-secretly thrilled with – at least, I hope. Since that time I’ve been equally-enthralled by his take-and-give-no-fucks Twitter feed. Most recently, he’s been a slightly-reluctant rock star, playing the drums for the exquisitely moody Cigarettes After Sex. They’re going to be touring the US in the coming months, including stops in Brooklyn and Boston, so I may have to make the pilgrimage to one or both of those shows. The tour kicks off in Texas, just like Madonna’s Blonde Ambition tour did, so they’re following in some magical footsteps. Don’t expect cone-bras or mimed-masturbation, but a fan-boy can wish…

It’s been a long time since I’ve been inspired by a group, or any music for that matter. I thought it was age, or the general state of radio, then I thought I was heading into the ennui of a mid-life crisis, but now I’m feeling a new spark : the seductive pull of something that resonates and propels me to explore again. It’s moody and evocative – what one might expect the cigarette-smoke tendrils of Dorothy Parker to sound like if they could make music. It casts an entrancing spell, slightly reminiscent of the very best work of Angelo Badalamenti. The dreamy soundscape conjured is cinematic in texture, and devastating in lyrical liberty.

Their eponymous album opened with ‘K’, setting up a promising beginning that the tense music teased was not going to always going to be easy. “I remember when I first noticed that you liked me back/ We were sitting down in a restaurant waiting for the check/ We had made love earlier that day with no strings attached/ But I could tell that something had changed how you looked at me then.”

In ‘Affection’, the double-edged conundrum of being the object of such or the person who’s fixated finds bittersweet imbalance: 

I know that you say I get mean when I’m drinking,
But then again sometimes I get really sweet
So what does it mean if I tell you to go fuck yourself
Or if I say that you’re beautiful to me
It’s affection always,
You’re gonna see it someday
My attention for you
Even if it’s not what you need

By the time that album concludes with ‘Young & Dumb’, the battlefield of love has been littered with carnage, the bitter sting of betrayal hanging in the air like so much gray smoke. But the soul of the music remains calm, it’s dreamlike-trance holding the listener rapt, soothing the raging heart. 

It’s good fucking stuff. 

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Getting Into Tom Ford’s Underwear

I’ve been begging for this for years. 

With his celebrated history of putting sex into fashion, Tom Ford by all rights should have been putting out underwear collections a long time ago. I have a feeling I know why he hasn’t up until now: he has always claimed he doesn’t wear underwear. Ruins the line and adds unwanted bulk to an outfit. Fair enough. But I’m guessing he doesn’t wear all those gorgeous gowns either, and that’s never stopped him. Regardless, I’m happy he’s finally taken the undergarments plunge. Or am I?

He premiered the first collection of silk boxers and baggy boxer briefs on the runaway a few days ago, and that initial peek left me wanting more. Not because it was so good, but because it was rather underwhelming. Silk boxers? Are we really going back there? Fine, I’m game. But those baggy boxer briefs? And animal prints? Not so sure. I like the subtle shades of nude he’s working, and I’m sure the fabric is luxurious to the utterly-impractical point of ‘Dry-Clean-Only’ but I expected something sexier, maybe something a little sheer, perhaps a touch of lace or mesh if we’re going to animal-print cheesiness. 

No price points have been revealed yet either, which is always an ominous sign for my empty wallet, but everyone knows I’m going to end up in Tom Ford’s underwear. Some way, somehow, it’s going to happen. This was meant to be. And if it means my ass is going to be covered in leopard-print silk, so fucking be it. Mr. Ford can caress my privates any way he likes. 

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The Egg Illuminated

There was a time when Albany was magical to me. When I was a little kid in relatively-rural Amsterdam, NY, I viewed Albany as the closest thing to a big city. I’d been to New York and Boston a number of times, but they felt far away and distant. A few hours can be an eternity for children. Albany was a much shorter trip, but it still held the allure of glamour and sophistication. My Mom used to go shopping in the downtown, back when it bustled, and stores occupied multiple floors. The Plaza had been completed by the time I was old enough to walk, and we went to a few shows at the Egg. In certain sections, the walls were curved, and the novelty of the thing never wore off.

On certain days, when I’m walking at lunch and the sun is shining in a clear blue sky, I’ll look up at the Plaza and feel the same excitement and awe of our city. I’ll remember the wonder it once held for a kid from Amsterdam. I’ll try, mostly in vain, to re-inhabit that moment when it all seemed so impressive.

 

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A Tale of Two Scarves

Because sometimes a single scarf is too lonely.

Because sometimes a solitary color needs company.

Because sometimes silk wants for a bit of velvet.

For all these reasons and more, this is a two-scarf day.

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A Winter Dinner Party

This evening my brother is hosting a dinner party at his new home in Amsterdam. At my none-too-subtle urging, we started planning for this a while back. Getting a new home in order is no easy feat, and he’s been working around the clock to bring it together. I personally think it looks great considering how long he’s had it, and the front two rooms are magazine-worthy. (Maybe they wouldn’t be the cover, but an interior layout is nothing shabby.) 

There is a cocktail hour loosely slated for before dinner, at which we’ll be serving bourbon-based drinks. The signature cocktail for the night’s festivities will be the grapefruit-accented Blushing Betty, as seen here. Of course, there will also be Bada Bing cherries on hand and a fresh bottle of sweet vermouth for anyone who wants a Manhattan

I’ve requested some mellow jazz for the evening, but my bother’s tastes tend to stray into livelier territory. I can handle some Buddy Rich, the rest remains to be seen. A fancy record-player and a extensive collection of vinyl means that the possibilities are endless. We might get into the Lou Reed and Velvet Underground weeds, and I’m not going to argue. Hell, we may even get my brother to strum the guitar and start a sing-a-long. Anyone know the chords to ‘Like A Prayer‘? 

JoAnn is coming in from the Cape to join us, and Suzie and Pat are driving in from Delmar, so it will be a good group for breaking bread and passing a winter night. 

PS – If the time isn’t right, then Mo Vaughn

 

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Stirrings in Winter’s Night

It’s been brewing for a while now, and in my head it’s slowly been assembling itself. It’s different, though, when you finally put it into words and begin the process. A new project is in the works, and for the next few months my creative output will be focused on that. As is often the state of things at this stage, it’s all hush-hush and top-secret. The only thing I can tell you is that it was inspired by a recent trip to the art museum in Chicago, which basically tells you nothing.

Being that it is the earliest stage, I’m not sure how this one will play out. It may be entirely online, or it may manifest itself physically. That’s the best part of this moment – I just don’t know which way it will take me. I do know that it will be darker than some of my usual fare, and as such I’ve been prepping by making our home a little warmer and more peaceful, with the sounds of Japanese Zen meditation flute music, a few sticks of Japanese incense, and a couple of books (and upcoming experiments in) inekana. If there is peace by the hearth, my creative demons can freely roam and no one will get hurt.

Hopefully you’ll come along for the ride…

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Olympic Spotlight: Javier Fernández

Representing Spain, figure skater Javier Fernández had a stellar showing in his short program at the Winter Olympics. The long program is slated to take place today and it looks to be a nail-biter. Nathan Chen all but knocked himself out of gold-medal contention, so it’s all up to Adam Rippon to bring home some precious metal for the US. Japan is giving the real threat to Mr. Fernández, with two amazing athletes: Yuzuru Hanyu and Shoma Uno. Hanyu currently sits comfortably in the lead, Fernández is right behind him, and Uno rounds out the top three. It’s going to be quite the night of competition. 

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