Category Archives: Andy

Candlelight Date Space

Twenty-two years into a relationship with someone, it’s sometimes difficult to find those moments of romance and intimacy, but every once in a while a romantic night surprises and unexpectedly delights with the simple gratitude of sitting next to your husband at dinner and a show. 

We began at our usual dining haunt in Albany, dp: An American Brasserie, where we ordered a few of our favorite dishes and eased into a rare Saturday evening out. No matter how many years have passed since we had our first conversation at Oh Bar, I still thrill at dining out with Andy. Even more thrilling than that is when he joins me for a concert, such as this Candlelight event of a string quartet playing the music of Taylor Swift at the Kenmore Ballroom. While I am a long-time-in-coming Swiftie now, Andy is decidedly not, so I billed this as a classical concert.

In the same way that I got him to sit through ‘The House of Mirth’ and any film with subtitles (hello ‘Crouching Dragon, Hidden Dragon’), I intentionally neglected to mention it was a Taylor Swift concert, he just thought it was a classical show. There is a photo I snapped when he realized what was happening, but that’s just for me. Happily, he said he enjoyed it, and we both loved visiting the revamped Kenmore Ballroom for the first time. 

It was during ‘Blank Space’ that I suddenly had that lovely feeling of gratitude and appreciation for Andy wash over me, the same way it has happened sporadically over the years, most memorably in this dinner overlooking all of Boston as we planned our wedding

The next day, I was sitting in Starbucks with a pistachio latte (my latest unhealthy obsession) and this version of ‘Blank Space’ came over the speakers, which was the universe’s way of cementing this romantic moment in my happy memory firmament. 

But I’ve got a blank space, babyAnd I’ll write your name…
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Holiday Stroll 2022: With My Husband ~ Part 2

The second day of our Holiday Stroll weekend began in colder and grayer form. Andy slept in, and I made my way to downtown to get the supplies for the following week’s Children’s Holiday gathering – another planned return to something we once did with some semblance of regularity, and which now felt strange and new. I shuffled along the Southwest Corridor Park and noticed that flowers and berries were still showing off. 

It recalled the Lenten roses I’d seen on our car ride home the night before – a row of them in ghostly bloom at this late date in December, somehow blooming on an evening when both Andy and I were too chilled to explore the city any further. On this day, the same chill was in the air, so I hurried along and finished all my shopping – both for the following week, and all the holiday shopping for friends and family. (Jaxon Layne was the last one I needed to find something for.) 

Returning home to find Andy ensconced on his end of the couch and finishing up his cup of coffee, I joined him for an early afternoon siesta – a favorite part of visiting Boston now

Dusk came quickly, and without wanting a formal or stuffy dinner scene we took a car to Chinatown and had another meal of comfort food. Miscalculating the timing, our early dinner plans ran into the matinee-ending crush of the nearby theater district, so traffic snarled and snagged, causing us to walk over to the Ritz-Carlton for a beat, where we found another fireplace that played a part on previous holiday strolls and visits.

One of those jewel-like moments that find their unplanned way into every holiday stroll, we paused there to get warm, then continued on through the chilly night, down Boylston and all the way to the Newbury. 

Formerly the Taj, this was where we spent our wedding weekend, and as such holds special significance. We are accustomed to seeing this spot filled with flowers, but the Christmas version was just as spectacular. Across the street, a battalion of geese stood sentry on the pond at the Boston Public Garden. Maybe for our wedding anniversary we will return for a night in one of the suites. 

For now, we can merely afford another night at the condo, which held its own holiday allure with this mantle of stockings (the ‘E’ is for Emi and the ‘N’ is for Noah who will be joining me next weekend). 

And while I missed Kira this time around, I might have had a more heartfelt stroll being accompanied by Andy. When he’s not in Boston, his presence is always felt – in the Public Garden, at our favorite restaurants, along the Southwest Corridor Park – and when he is in Boston, it’s even better. 

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Holiday Stroll 2022: With My Husband ~ Part 1

This is one of those scary transitional years that always feels like it’s going to wreak havoc with a Virgo’s desire for order and consistency, but teaches happy lessons in letting go and going with the flow. When Kira indicated she wasn’t yet ready to do a holiday stroll, I was disappointed but understood. It forced a change-up that’s been in the making for a few years. The last time we did an official stroll was in 2019, right before COVID hit, and nothing has been the same since. We squeaked out a time-traveling bit of holiday magic to make the Holiday Stroll of 2020, but in 2021 it fell apart completely. No stroll, no roll. And somehow, no drama. We’d all been too beaten down to care. 

2022 felt like it might be the return of something normal, the rekindling of something good, but after a few months, the year proved to be just another dud, so when Kira canceled this year’s planned stroll, I turned to Andy and asked him to join me and lift my spirits. Good guy that he is, he agreed to come along for his first holiday stroll, and save a Christmas weekend that might have been lost to sadness. 

If you look closely at the bottom center of the above photo, you will notice a gentleman making his way through the Southwest Corridor Park – that’s Andy, returning from dropping off the car in the garage. Out of my many years spent in Boston, one of the happiest sights is seeing Andy walking along this path. It was an auspicious beginning to a peaceful stroll. 

My first order of business was decorating the condo, so I lit a few festive candles that soon spread their spicy, warm scents of cinnamons and balsam and cloves and pine throughout the rooms. Andy pulled a stool over to his spot on the couch and set up his coffee, while some quasi-holiday-music played on the stereo from a favorite movie.

Curtains went up, the mantle was decked out, garlands were lit, and pillows were switched out for the Christmas season. A welcome sense of coziness swelled just as the temperature went down and the day dimmed. My only real strolling plan was a walk through the Seaport Holiday Market – it would be my first time visiting it, so Andy and I would experience another first together, like we did so many years ago, and so many years since. 

The market was cute and quaint, and more extensive than we expected – with local artisans offering their goods. Walking but we hurried through it because it was also much colder than we had anticipated. 

I’d made reservations at The Smoke Shop for some warm comfort food – another first that turned out to be another happy moment. After any sort of walking expedition, especially in Boston, one works up an appetite, so I ordered the ‘Pit Crew’ with two meats and two sides and all was well with the world. Andy started with a cozy little cocktail called ‘Saving Daylight’ which consisted of bourbon, honey, lemon and a touch of cinnamon, while I opted for a tall glass of ginger ale. It was a very good meal, and we finished it off with some egg nog butter cake. 

The walk across one of the bridges bringing us back from the Seaport section was brutal – windy and cold and biting – so we paused by a fireplace at the Intercontinental Hotel before getting an Uber home. 

The fading remnants of a recently-full moon hung low in the sky, sparkling on the water and lending an aspect of holiday magic to the end of the evening. We returned to the cozy condo scene, and after a hot shower I slipped into the bed, where Andy joined me for the showing of ‘The Man Who Came to Dinner’ – a Holiday Stroll tradition that somehow was still intact.

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When I’m Not the Psychotic Husband

There are certain days when work, aging parents, unresponsive friends, and the general malaise of the 2020’s conspire to leave one feeling defeated, dejected, and depressed. At the end of some of those days, you may want to pull into the garage, safely exhale, and not worry about whether you will start sobbing. Then you take a a deep breath, try to collect yourself so your husband doesn’t see you fall completely apart, and pick up your bag and coat to start the remainder of the day.

If you have a good husband, you will enter the kitchen and find something like this mad scene on the counter, recalling the gingerbread boy scene from ‘Shrek’, and you will smile and maybe even laugh, and be thankful that your own leg hasn’t been eaten. Then you will take a bite of gingerbread, and life will taste sweet again, if only for a moment. 

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Andy’s Dreamy Cream Sauce

Over the past few years, Andy has been quietly perfecting his white cream sauces. Known in these parts for his outstanding reds, I’ve been gently encouraging him to branch into the creamier territory, for things such as fettuccine Alfredo or this pancetta and pea creation. I know it’s doing nothing for my wardrobe, but it’s doing wonders for the happiness of my tummy, and at this stage in life that’s definitely more important than fitting into a pair of slim fit jeans. (Jeans are overrated anyway.)

With its base of butter and cream, it’s difficult to go wrong with any variation on an Alfredo, and I’ve been reaping the benefits of some delicious trials without so much as a single error. He does a mean chicken and broccoli dish that I end up eating for dinner, then breakfast, and lunch, and dinner again. Pasta is perfect for fall comfort dishes, and ’tis definitely the season. 

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Scenes from Andy’s Birthday Dinner

We celebrated Andy’s birthday with the family this past weekend, and it was a gathering that spanned the generations, and our twenty-two years together. All those years run giddily into one happy entity after a while, creating layers of love and warm memories that glow like birthday candles, the kind that keep relighting even when you think they’re out. Family is unwavering that way. Here’s a glimpse into ours. 

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The Happy Birthday Boy

Today is Andy’s birthday, and while he has explicitly stated he does not want a big deal made of it, he deserves a little shout-out on his special day. He is always here in myriad ways, informing every day and grounding it, adding an unexpected comment of biting wit or sly humor. After two decades, he still has the power to surprise and charm just when I think I’ve seen and heard it all. 

As we get older, and the world grows sadder with each passing loss, I think we have learned to be kinder, and more appreciative of what we have. We’ve also, sometimes slowly, come to be more understanding of each other. Where once we may have striven to be independent and hold stubbornly on to who we were before we met, we now bend a little, compromise a bit, and make our way in the world as a team. 

On this day, he’s earned a little relaxation and fun, and if he wants a quiet uneventful birthday, so shall he have it. (Of course, if you have his number and want to reach out, he would never be mad about it.)

Happy birthday, Drew – I love you. 

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Jars of Summer Jewels

It’s been a number of years since Andy went on a canning spree, and just as he returned to the apple pie a couple of weeks ago, so too has he returned to a family tradition that brings back memories of his loved ones. 

Canning is not a quick and easy process, and it’s far too involved for me to attempt. For Andy, it was a part of his childhood, and as he bustled about the kitchen I stayed out of his way, happily watching this season’s first showing of ‘Clue’ in the family room. 

As he carefully preserved a big box of summer’s ripest tomatoes, I realized that he was putting summer away into each jar. As the fall ripens into winter, we will have little bites of summer jewels in our pasta sauces and soups, carrying on his history, and warming our home. 

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A Rustic Return to Pie Form

Andy makes his pies from scratch, crust included, and that’s something I simply can’t/won’t do. It took almost everything out of me to master this dough recipe, and that’s enough for now. As for Andy’s apple pie, this is the first time he’s made it in several years. He used the original recipe handed down from his Mom, and whenever he makes one of her recipes I know he feels closer to her. There’s something about baking with love that makes things taste better. 

He put together the dough and rolled it out, assembling it in rustic form, then popped it all into the oven to make the magic happen. The kitchen and then the house filled with the aroma of fall and comfort and warmth – it signaled the changing of seasons, and a return to the cozy food one conjures at such a time. A freshly-baked pie brings back childhood holiday memories for both of us.

We served it to some dear friends with freshly-whipped cream, and it was heaven.  

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My Husband the Cop

There are good cops and there are bad cops, and all sorts of in-between. There are also systemic problems that run through police culture, and have been part of that very system for centuries. This post isn’t going to offer any solutions or recommendations on any of that because I simply don’t have the answers. I do, however, have a husband who is a retired cop, and from all that I have heard and know, he was a pretty good one. 

Andy started off as a volunteer firefighter (coming from a long line of firefighters in his family, including his grandfather who was one of the founders of the Guilderland Fire Department, and the last living charter member at one point), then became a dispatcher and volunteer paramedic, before finally taking a job as a police officer, where he would have remained were it not for an unfortunate injury that cut it all short years before I met him. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I had met him when he was an officer. I don’t know if I could have lived that life, and as a police officer he probably could not have handled mine; he once made it clear that if I ever broke the law he wouldn’t have been an alibi. (Like if I had to murder someone and it wasn’t necessarily self-defense – a question I may have asked on our second date.)

To do all of those things – firefighter, dispatcher, paramedic, police officer – requires someone with a strong heart and an unyielding belief in justice and helping people. It demands a fortitude built on more than self-gratification, and it requires a desire to help everyone in need. Not everyone can or should take up such a life, and sometimes the best would-be-officers are those who know enough not to pursue the career if they are not cut out for it. There’s no shame in that either, as I happily count myself as one of them. (Not that I’d ever even contemplated such a career.) 

But for those that do feel such a calling, for those who still want to make a difference, and to perhaps work from the inside to improve and change a system that admittedly needs some work, there are a few exams being given in New York State, including two that are housed in my own agency, the Department of Environmental Conservation. The exam announcements for our Environmental Conservation Police Officer and Forest Ranger titles are currently up and open for applications (until August 3, 2022) and they are hoping to cull a diverse and broad candidate field, so if you or anyone you know may be interested, please visit this Civil Service webpage for further details and information

As for my husband Andy, the photograph below was taken during his dispatcher days – a springboard for many an officer – and I think we need to take a moment to appreciate how cute he was, even in the requisite police mustache of the 80’s. (Also, respect the landline.)

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A Toast to Andy’s Dad

It’s been five years since Andy’s Dad passed away, so on that anniversary we went out to dinner to honor the day, as Andy said it would be what his Dad wanted. This Balinese lemonade was my way of toasting a father-in-law who had always been exceptionally kind to me. Andy had the cocktail special of the day at his favorite restaurant, and we had a lovely dinner remembering his Dad. 

As we kick off Father’s Day weekend, it is a good time to remember the Dads who are no longer with us. 

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Summer Mac Salad

Macaroni salad has always been the stuff of summer in our house. This is the time of the year when Andy whips up a batch to have on had for lunches or gatherings, or if I’m extra lucky just on an unremarkable afternoon when the weather is fine and you want something that is both vibrant and nostalgic. I don’t usually have the patience to do all the chopping and cooling that makes a macaroni salad great, but Andy has such gifts. This particular bowl was especially good – Andy claims it’s a new relish he’s found – and whatever the reasons or secrets behind it, I was grateful for its goodness. 

He fired up the grill for some burgers and hot dogs to go with it, and there was no finer dinner to be had at any cost. The road to summer is at hand, and it begins with a simple salad. 

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A Dozen Years of Married Life ~ Part 3

Sunday dawned in sunny fashion, the universe still playing its most beautiful card on the day we were designed to leave. Rather than regret, I celebrated the sun at hand, and the weekend we had just had, making a quick walk about the neighborhood while Andy had his coffee and showered. There were bleeding hearts and azaleas, tulips and pansies, and a few neighbors of the fuzzy kind

This rabbit showed up again, as it to confirm we were exactly where we were supposed to be. 

The blooms along Southwest Corridor Park saw me back to the condo, where Andy was almost ready. 

A dashing husband makes for a fine brunch date. 

And a happy anniversary weekend joins the happy pantheon of all that came before, continuing our journey to what will come again. 

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A Dozen Years of Married Life ~ Part 2

Rain had been forecast as a possibility for our actual anniversary, but it stayed away, even allowing for peeks of blue sky through a thin layer of clouds. Grateful for the peaceful break, we made our annual jaunt to the Boston Public Garden. The trees were in bloom, if a bit behind their usual schedule. The swan boats had just started running again, their bright white feathers echoing the crab-apple trees. 

The colors on this day were as muted as they were fresh, like a whimsical watercolor painting that felt like history about to create or reveal itself. Andy and I walked through the Garden, pausing at the places we knew so well. 

Squirrels and ducks and and geese swirled around us, welcoming us back. As unlikely as it was, I still wondered if any of them had been here twelve years ago. Most of the trees remained, a few new ones had been planted, and many had undergone the wear and tear of time. We were older too, taking a slower pace, as much to enjoy the moment as to give our bodies some ease. 

Twelve years ago this little bottle of Creed was a bit fuller, but only a bit, as this is the only day of the year on which I wear it. 

We made our way through the Garden, then ventured into the site of the former Taj, now the Newbury, where we had once been ensconced in a suite for our wedding weekend. Now, it would be the site of our lunch, and I began with this ‘Prohibition Daisy’ mocktail. Andy chose his favorite Hemingway daiquiri, which showed up like destiny on the menu. Our table overlooked the Public Garden from which we had come, and we reminisced about our rehearsal dinner cocktail hour in this very same room. 

After lunch, we checked out the florals of the lobby, where we found peonies, just as we had twelve years ago. We exited onto Newbury Street and meandered to Shreve, Crump and Low for the annual washing of the rings. With all that has happened in the last few years, it was a comfort and a balm to realize that there were still traditions that mattered, still ways to mark time and be grateful, still ways to love…

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A Dozen Years of Married Life ~ Part 1

Celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary a couple of weeks ago in Boston, Andy and I re-discovered a city in spring bloom while remembering that wonderful day a dozen years ago. A quieter celebration, especially considering the current state of the world, it seemed to mean a little more than louder and more bombastic celebrations we may have had in the past. Southwest Corridor Park was lined with flowering plums and apples, while our building on Braddock Park was framed by the leaflessly-enchanting blooms of an American dogwood. We were back in beauty. 

A gift from last year’s anniversary, a spritz of Soleil Brulant brought back more recent happy memories, time layering upon time, creating the richness of our shared history. As Andy settled in at the condo, I went on a quick shopping run on Newbury Street. 

Hastening along, I returned to find Andy on the couch in an afternoon slumber. After carefully unloading some food in the kitchen, I moved quietly to the bedroom for a daily meditation. A favorite time of the day, in one of my favorite rooms, while my favorite person was sleeping in the other room – it was an auspicious beginning to our anniversary weekend.  

On that first night, we had a steak dinner in the Seaport, then returned home while the city bloomed. The next day we would return to the Garden…

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