Category Archives: Music

The Summer Groove Master

It was the summer of 1990, and in considering almost half a century of living it may have been my favorite summer thus far. I was fourteen years old and had just finished my freshman year of high school. A group of friends and classmates had been accepted as part of a People-to-People Friendship Exchange with what was then the Soviet Union, and we were actively preparing for the three-week jaunt halfway around the world.

Madonna’s ‘I’m Breathless’ album was my musical obsession at the time, combining a love of Madonna with a love of Stephen Sondheim, and culminating with the majestic ‘Vogue’ (which was all Shep Pettibone, no Sondheim for that). Despite this aural treasure-trove, I decided against bringing a walk-man to the Soviet Union because I didn’t want to be distracted or taken out of the moment by music. Seems strange and more than slightly stupid, something I realized soon enough when I was sitting on the floor of JFK Airport on a 6-hour layover with nothing to do.

Suzie came to the rescue and let me listen to her music, which included what is now a summer classic playlist: the soundtrack to ‘The Mighty Quinn’. So yes, we have Suzie to thank for how reggae music came to shade that Soviet Union trip, as well as every summer thereafter.

My favorite cut was the second track, ‘Groove Master’, whose groovy horn bombast and electronic drum tempest set the celebratory tone for the first trip I was taking without my family. I think the fact that Suzie and her Dad were going eliminated the worry I would have otherwise had, but that first night in Washington, DC was still a little lonely.

The next day, I found my own groove with friends, quickly establishing connections that immediately dissolved any lingering loneliness or homesickness. Young people are surprisingly adaptable, even when we think we aren’t. It’s a sort of stupid strength, in the sense that we’re not really aware of it or its power – in the same way that itís easier for kids to pick up a new language instead of adults. (I have absolutely no more brain cells to learn anything new.) Back then, I could have a scary night and bounce back at the break of the next day, instantly forgetting the darkness that came before. The darkness doesn’t dissipate as quickly when you get older, partly because the troubles are more difficult.

In the summer of 1990, however, the only trouble was whether Iíd get caught sneaking out of the girls’ room at midnight. One haplessly envious guy asked me if I ever slept in my own room, hinting at a certain jealousy of the access I had to the inner sanctum of the girls he only admired from afar. On a certain level, my gayness, though unacknowledged and unrealized by myself more than anyone else, provided a sense of safety for girls, who spilled their secrets and tea to me because I was never a threat in the way that straight guys might have been. And girls would prove to be my best friends, starting with Suzie, whose shared summer memories went way back to when she shared her grape taffy with me beneath a grape arbor.

We started that trip in Washington, DC, right around the 4th of July and all its accompanying festivities. We had to learn the basics of America before becoming ambassadors to another country, and in the heat of high summer, backed by ‘The Mighty Quinn’ soundtrack, a set of new memories was being forged. When summer melds happy memories with happy music, it’s a gift that lasts as long as our minds allow it.

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A Super Fairy Interlude

The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale gets its weekendly posting place with this kick-off – an interlude that reveals how much has happened in twenty years. First, the shoddy WordArt and cheap-ass costumes have aged about as well as my abs and hair color. Second, the amateurish posturing and my Zoolander facial contortions are laughable as well. About the only thing that withstands the test of time is this driving power-pop anthem from the 80’s. It gives the ultimate element of cheese-please that puts this into so-bad-it’s-almost-good territory, and that’s the best we’re going to get today.

Where have all the good men gone and where are all the gods?
Where’s the streetwise Hercules to fight the risin’ odds?
Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night, I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need

I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong and he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
He’s gotta be sure and it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life, larger than life

Somewhere after midnight in my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach, there’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It’s gonna take a Superman to sweep me off my feet, yeah

I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong and he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero till the morning light
He’s gotta be sure and it’s gotta be soon
And he’s gotta be larger than life, larger than life

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I could swear there is someone somewhere watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach like a fire in my blood

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  20. Swan Lake Fantasia: Part One, Part Two, Part Three, and Part Four.
  21. Black & White in Briefs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  22. Weave of Basket, Weave of Rope: Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, and Part Five.
  23. Chains of Gray to Color: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  24. Black Jockstrap: Back Entry: Part One, Part Two and Part Three.

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Magic is the Moonlight

While we’ve already celebrated this song here, that was six years prior, and that’s an entire pandemic and lifetime ago. Before we end the month of June, let’s revisit this magical piece of music as performed by Julie London, as it comes with a happy recent memory. On our Memorial Day weekend in Ogunquit, the weather was often rainy, so we sometimes took our shelter in the title shops along Main Street. On one particular gray morning, we found ourselves in a charming little store with beautiful jewelry and pieces of art, a few antiques and some whimsical walking canes. This song came on, and though the sky felt melancholy, I looked over at my husband inspecting something and felt a wave of love wash over us, all these years after our very first trip to this Beautiful Place By The Sea twenty-five years ago. The moment felt magical…

Throughout the ensuing years, there were always magical moments that appeared quietly and when least expected, little times where I’d glimpse Andy doing something endearing, or simply going through the motions of the day, and I felt the reassurance and warmth of the life we created together. Many cycles of moons and suns have turned over during all these years, and in some ways many lifetimes. Depending on perspective a lifetime can be a day or a century, and time’s only way is forward. For this moment of moonlight and magic, we give respectful pause.

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Summer Starting Something

Our island summer is in full swing, despite threatening skies and rainy days – and an island summer will not be stopped by weather or other happenstance. Island is attitude, and frame of mind. It is imagination and fantasy and can exist solely within the brain. That means it is not bound by the typical constraints of physicality or topography or meteorology.

Today Skip and I are scheduled to return to basics for our annual BroSox Adventure, heading to Boston for a Red Sox game at the start of the season, just like we did exactly ten years ago. This song is a song of promise and possibility – the very beginning of a summer of adventure and fun. Jury’s out on the sun, but I remain foolishly hopeful. Summer welcomes fools, and I welcome the opportunity to be the fool.

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Wet At Dawn, Wet At Dusk

The day opened and closed, almost precisely 13 hours apart, with a double-dip in the pool. It’s been a very long time – years probably – since I’ve taken a swim before work, but on a day scheduled to up to 98 degrees, I thought it best to start off as cool as possible, and take that loveliness with me through the day.

A cat bird joined me for the morning dip, silently perched on the wooden fence beneath the seven sons’ flower tree. I recognized its silhouette, the jaunty way its back feathers turned up and the inquisitive tilting of its head. It didn’t sing so early in the morning, perhaps enjoying the hushed early hour as much as me.

Rise up this morning, smiled with the rising sun
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singing sweet songs of melodies pure and true
Saying, “This is my message to you”

Already into the 80’s, the day looked to be an impossibly hot one, and the only way to trudge through it would be to take it slow, and keep this cool moment in mind. At some point in the summer, the heat will seep so deeply into everything – every place and every space – that it will be impossible to escape other than in one’s mind.

We were not yet there, and I will not complain at this early stage.

Singing, “Don’t worry about a thing
‘Cause every little thing gonna be alright”
Singing, “Don’t worry about a thing” (Don’t worry)
“‘Cause every little thing gonna be alright”

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Island Sea Song

Summer slams onto the scene with an oppressive wall of heat and humidity. After a disappointingly rainy spring, this sun and heat is not entirely unwelcome. It’s all a bit much, but with rain set to return for the last half of the week we’ll take it, and embrace the hot and humid island weather. It ties into our summer theme divinely, and that’s worthy of an exclamation point!

So slow your roll, pause your day, and dip into what already feels like a deep summer day. Let the sweat roll off the brow, let the heat batter you down, and let the summer have its way.

We’ve only just begun

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A Midnight Post To Share With You

At the time of this writing – approximately 10:24 PM – it is still raining, and it’s been raining the entire day. This is reportedly the 29th consecutive weekend of precipitation being recorded in the Albany area. That just about broke me. Andy walked in during a tirade that included more f-words than I’ve uttered in a while because I’m so behind in the garden that I’m leaning into a jungle theme this summer because it’s already too late to prune the shit back. So much needed to be dug out several weeks ago. Oh well. 

Feels like a crappy way to begin June, so I’m finding a song of comfort to see us through the night. Give this one a whirl. It’s the emotional finale of ‘Maybe Happy Ending’, one of the most charming things on Broadway right now. 

“Those sunny afternoons you spent with me, they’ll still be happening, just somewhere in the past. Each simple moment was a luxury – they’re not less valuable just cause they didn’t last.”

Yes, sunny afternoons feel far away in such dreary times, but somewhere they’re still shining. A comforting thought. 

At the start of June…

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The Lamp is Low

Friday night, and the lamp is low, but the music is on, and the evening is young. 

A young evening, wanting and waiting only to unfurl its splendor, whatever form that might take, whatever fun or love we might make – and an especially young point, as the weekend is an extra-long holiday weekend, making Monday into Sunday – and Sunday a glorious bonus.

A dream of a spring evening, on the eve of our unofficial kick-off to the summer season with the Memorial Day festivities – and a dream of a song, fit for a lamp on low. 

Dream beside me in the midnight glow, the lamp Is low
Dream and watch the shadows come and go, the lamp Is low
While you linger in my arms, my lips will sigh “I love you so”
Dream the sweetest dreams you’ll ever know
Tonight the moon is high, the lamp is low

We won’t be launching our official summer theme for a couple of weeks, so seek out last summer’s ‘Coquette’ celebration if you are so inclined. (The archives are a good place to start.)

 

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Rizzky Bizness

The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale is a dense and volurious work (see all the links below, and consider that we’re only a little more than halfway through posting the entire thing). To make it a little more palatable and fun, it contained silly breaks for pop culture nods and winks, including this one. 

Just take those old records off the shelfI’ll sit and listen to ’em by myselfToday’s music ain’t got the same soulI like that old time rock ‘n’ rollDon’t try to take me to a discoYou’ll never even get me out on the floorIn ten minutes I’ll be late for the doorI like that old time rock ‘n’ roll

Still like that old time rock ‘n’ rollThat kind of music just soothes the soulI reminisce about the days of oldWith that old time rock ‘n’ roll (oh)

Won’t go to hear ’em play a tangoI’d rather hear some blues or funky old soulThere’s only one sure way to get me to goStart playing old time rock ‘n’ rollCall me a relic, call me what you willSay I’m old-fashioned, say I’m over the hillToday’s music ain’t got the same soulI like that old time rock ‘n’ roll

Still like that old time rock ‘n’ rollThat kind of music just soothes the soulI reminisce about the days of oldWith that old time rock ‘n’ roll (oh)

Still like that old time rock ‘n’ rollThat kind of music just soothes the soulI reminisce about the days of oldWith that old time rock ‘n’ roll (oh)

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  20. Swan Lake Fantasia: Part One, Part Two, Part Three, and Part Four.
  21. Black & White in Briefs: Part One and Part Two.

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May Musical Memories

May makes for magical and magnificent musical memories, and a little alliteration alights like a lilting airy lyric, married and melded to a melancholy melody. 

May makes for moody musical moments – and a few follow:

My first and only straight boy crush.

My first date with a guy (unbeknownst to me).

Let your body move to the music.

How do I get you alone?

When the night falls…

I’ll be there for you.

How long will it take to get used to me?

The Rainbow Connection.

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The Swan’s Sacrifice

“For the Prince and his love the male Swan, redemption comes through death. But not even the pecking of his swan mates nor the poking and prodding of the Prince’s nurses and doctor can ultimately defeat the love the two found in each other’s embrace.” – David Roberts 

“As the Queen approaches her dead son on his bed – the closest she has come to expressing any sincere human emotion throughout – the audience sees the Swan and the Prince above and behind the bed, in an embrace which will eternally link their hearts and their love and gives hope to all who search for love and meaning in a relationship.” ~ David Roberts

“When our perceived self merges with our real self, there is usually some kind of death and loss, but more importantly, there is a rebirth.” ~ David Roberts

“Only in adulthood can any intelligent understanding of the meaning of one’s existence in this world be gained from one’s experiences in it.”~ Bruno Bettleheim

“Psychological discoveries aid the adult in comprehending the child from within an adult’s frame of reference. But such adult understanding of the machinations of a child’s mind often increases the gap between them – the two seem to look at the same phenomenon from such different points of view that each sees something quite different. If the adult insists that the way he sees things is correct – as it may well be, seen objectively and with adult knowledge – this gives the child a hopeless feeling that there is no use in trying to arrive at a common understanding. Knowing who holds the power, the child, to avoid trouble and have his peace, says that he agrees with the adult, and is then forced to go it alone.”~ Bruno Bettelheim

“For those who immerse themselves in what the fairy tale has to communicate, it becomes a deep, quiet pool which at first seems to reflect only our own image; but behind it we soon discover the inner turmoils of our soul – its depth, and ways to gain peace within ourselves and with the world, which is the reward of our struggles.” ~ Bruno Bettelheim

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  20. Swan Lake Fantasia: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.

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The Swan Avenger

A would-be suicide saved by a swan.

A prince saved by a man.

A man saved by reflection. 

From the purest of pain to the grandest of grace… only we aren’t there yet, and the fairy’s tale is far from over.

There will be darkness before the light,

hurt before the healing,

and loss before the love.

But always… always… there is love.

When last we left our prince, he had attempted to take his life…

“His attempt is subverted by The Swan who emerges from the water. The Prince recognizes The Swan from his dreams and is instantly attracted to him. The Swan is joined by other swans who seem to threaten The Prince. The Swan controls them and protects The Prince, becoming his soul mate and his reason to live.” ~ David Roberts

“More importantly, the Swan’s embrace of The Prince is the moment he recognizes who he is and what kind of love he wants and needs. He is able to accept that he is gay and finds a peace that he has never known before.” ~ David Roberts

“In the second act, despite the growth he has experienced, the Prince falls into deeper despair, particularly when, at a dance, he recognizes an intruder to look just like his Swan. The events which follow result not in life, but in the accidental death of his Girlfriend.” ~ David Roberts 

“Alone in his bed, he is visited by the swans who quickly disappear. The Prince’s Swan emerges from the bed and in a tender and beautiful fashion, invites The Prince onto the bed.” ~ David Roberts 

“The other swans re-enter and kill The Swan. The Prince, alone, dies of despair. His mother enters to discover her dead son and for the first time expresses emotion, even love for him. Above the bed appears The Swan with the Young Prince cradled in his wings.” ~ David Roberts

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  20. Swan Lake Fantasia: Part One and Part Two.

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The Swan Prince

We begin with a waltz.

A swan.

And a young prince.

A fairy tale turned on its head, reversing gender roles, mind-fucking preconceived notions, and inverting the idea of where wisdom and knowledge resides, this story is like a multi-faceted jewel with many planes and cuts and angles. 

Life examined through the eyes of a child is life at its purest, and no matter how we try to hide what we do, children always see right through it. Whether they realize it plainly and actually, or merely sense it through instinct and natural empathy, children know. 

We know.

Mathew Bourne’s take on ‘Swan Lake’ posits a male version of the ballet – a gay fantasia that blasphemes the traditional and uptight ballet rules, throwing them out and replacing them with passion and messy emotion. It thrilled and moved me, sparking memories of a childhood of dreams and nightmares, desire and fantasy and tragedy – a dramatically operatic presentation of a gay boy’s past, somehow imagined and known and conjured by a gay composer. 

A review by David Roberts captured the story and the meanings behind it better than I could have done. He will narrate the rest of this swan’s tale.

“”Swan Lake” opens with The Young Prince tossing and turning in his very large bed, agitated by nightmares. Above him appears a figure from his imagination, a powerful swan. The figure disappears and his mother The Queen enters his room to console him; however, when he reaches out to her she turns away from him unable to give him the love and attention and acceptance that he needs.” ~ David Roberts

“In the remainder of the first act, we see The Young Prince and The Prince now grown attempting to adjust to being part of a Royal Family. He is paraded around by his mother, they both wave a lot (as Royals do), smile a lot (as Royals must), cut ribbons and launch new ships. But all of this activity does not satisfy the Prince’s need for love.” ~ David Roberts

“This is a Prince struggling with issues of separation and individualism, sexual identity, and self-realization. His Private Secretary continuously tries to set him up with a girlfriend. The Queen does not approve of this commoner and The Prince becomes more frustrated in his ability to find a significant relationship and determines to commit suicide by throwing himself into the lake in the park on the grounds of the palace.” ~ David Roberts 

“The funny thing is, the more people I surround myself with, the lonelier I feel. I could be dancing in a sea of people and still be completely alone. You may be the very first person at one of these parties to see me.”
? M.A. Kuzniar

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  20. Swan Lake Fantasia: Part One.

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Swan Lake Fantasia

Why shouldn’t a peacock transform into a swan? 

Why should such magic be reserved solely for the ugly ducklings?

And haven’t they suffered enough?

Even the beautiful don’t often realize at what price beauty comes. It is not always a gift.

The same might be said of youth, more powerfully too, as that is something all of us have had in one way or another. Did you realize yours when it was at hand? Did you appreciate and acknowledge its power? Did you savor or favor those precious days? 

Everyone had a childhood, and the common elements of childhood are largely the same no matter where or when you journeyed through yours. It was a time of peril and danger, delicacy and delight, tenderness and toughness – the very best of times, and the very worst. The entire world tilted and teetered on a tear or a laugh, and the smallest of gestures felt like the grandest and most life-altering of catastrophes. 

Darkness loomed around every corner and every edge of every day. 

The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale has reached its swan transformation, which is arguably the centerpiece of the entire project. Twenty years ago I was only just beginning to genuinely reflect and process my own childhood – the hurts and harm done in that time, done to me, done by me – and this sort of self-psycho-analysis came with its own risks, its own darkness. 

Our prancing peacock shape-shifts into a beautiful swan – beautiful and viciously brutal.

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

  1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three
  2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
  3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
  4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  5. Purple Puff Confection: Part OnePart Two, Part Three and Part Four.
  6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
  7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
  8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
  10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  11. A Pool Frolic: Part OnePart Two. and Part Three.
  12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  14. A Milky Interlude 
  15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part OnePart Two, and Part Three.
  16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
  17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
  18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
  19. A Peacock In Everything But Beauty: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.

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Pretty Pink High Descending

Returning to the doldrums of reality following an enchanting weekend like we just had is always a trying time, and once we got back home the rain began and didn’t let up for a few days. That was fine with me – it felt right, as though we were reacclimatizing to the usual routine, and a cocoon of a rainy spell has always been good for healing. The memories were fresh enough to feel like part of our magical weekend was still continuing. I put on some music from our time in Boston, turned on a few more lamps than usual in the living room, and felt the enchantment return, only slightly diminished. 

Of course it helps that Andy is somewhere nearby, and the company of a husband is one of the greatest comforts and luxuries this life affords. That’s the real balm when decompressing from such fun. 

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