Category Archives: Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale

“Therefore, even more than at the times fairy tales were invented, it is important to provide the modern child with images of heroes who have to go out into the world all by themselves and who, although originally ignorant of the ultimate things, find secure places in the world by following their right way with deep inner confidence.” ~ Bruno Bettelheim

“I do not believe that any peacock envies another peacock his tail, because every peacock is persuaded  that his own tail is the finest in the world. The consequence of this is that peacocks are peaceable birds.” ~ John Ruskin 

“She is a peacock in everything but beauty.” ~ Oscar Wilde 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
18. Willy Wonkers: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.

“How can you have rivals when no one else can do what you do?” ~ Terrence McNally, ‘Master Class’

When I was younger, and far longer than the twenty years ago when this project was created, I had a much different reading of the opening quote here. Back then I took it with all the heady hubris of a twenty-something young man – young in almost every way. 

Then time passed.

I grew up a little.

And a lot. 

And I realized that the opening words are true for everyone. 

When you realize that – truly and genuinely realize it, take it to heart and let it seep into your soul – you realize there’s no longer a need to compete. You step off the hamster wheel, you step off the scale, you step off the comparison bandwagon, and you are suddenly free. 

‘Comparison is the ultimate thief of joy.’

Or, just mind your own fucking business. 

Both are paths that lead to happier places. 

I’m not quite sure what this has to do with Divine Diva Tour, or why I’m even writing it now, but posting this project from twenty years ago has me intermingling the past with the present. To ignore the evolution that’s progressed in these past two decades is to do a grave disservice to the riches of retrospect at hand. 

These are the sort of riches that can never be found in a jewelry box or bank, they cannot be saved or purchased or bought, they can only be experienced. 

Once upon a time I sold the story to myself that I was divine, and I believed it because I believed everyone was divine. Egalitarian hubris, perhaps. Vanity that candles itself out in the celebration, adoration and devotion to others. 

And the shadow of manipulation that saw it all through glasses far darker than rose. 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
18. Willy Wonkers: Part One and Part Two.

Tying ribbons to the tips of a black umbrella made for a mad scene beside a graveyard. 

Snow fell on that day.

He didn’t need the sunglasses unless he was trying to hide the eyeshadow. 

A slim gray suit, all three pieces, borrowed from a boyfriend. 

Twenty years later, neither of us can fit into that suit, but it’s still a pretty thing.

Time turns us inside out. 

“A performance is a struggle.

You have to win.

The audience is the enemy.

We have to bring you to your knees because we’re right. 

If I’m worried about what you’re thinking about me, I can’t win.

Art is domination. 

It’s making people think that for that precise moment in time there is only one way, on voice. 

Yours.”

~ Terrence McNally ‘Master Class’

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
18. Willy Wonkers: Part One.

Culturally-deficient confession: I have never seen any iteration of the Willy Wonka movies. 

Not the original with Gene Wilder, nor any of the remakes with Johnny Depp or Timothee Chalamet. 

Am I missing anything?

I am aware of the visuals, however, and they inform this darker and more sinister take on the top-hatted cultural icon. It marks another turn in the Divine Diva Tour, and the fairy has another tale to tell.

“Where is fancy bred? In the heart or in the head?”

“The story is about the opposite aspects of one and the same person; that which pushes him to escape into a faraway world of adventure and fantasy, and the other part which keeps him bound to common practicality – his id and his ego, the manifestation of the reality principle and the pleasure principle.” ~ Bruno Bettelheim

Shadows and outlines, the man who is there, the man who is not there, the man who will never be.

There or anywhere. 

“There’s no earthly way of knowing which direction we are going.”

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One and Part Two.

The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale focuses on the second half of its title, as our journey shifts into a more fairy-tale oriented atmosphere, starting with this glimpse into the forest. It’s a place featured in pivotal points of most fairy tales – it is danger and risk, power and might, magic and charm, transformation and realization – sometimes all at once. For the purposes of this 2005 journey, the fairy and the forest provide fertile prancing ground for reconciling childhood and make-believe, and the beginning of the discernment between fantasy and reality. 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.
17. A Fairy’s Interlude: Part One.

Shape-shifting and skin-shedding, like some cross between a snake and an octopus, the divine diva transforms into fairy form again, doffing the dresses, stripping naked, and lighting upon the latest fancy. Fancies founded on the flimsiest wind or whimsy rise and fall on those trifling notions. Back in 2005, I was still trying to find myself, trying on various guises, discarding them, then trying on something new. Personality is fashion when you’re still in your twenties, even when you think yours is already established. 

It’s astonishing to think about how much of our life is erected on the most insubstantial of images – the life we pretend to lead, the life we want to lead, the life others think we lead, and the life we actually lead. Behind these images, what might be left? What might be true? What stands when the rest falls away? 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One and Part Two.

I have a tale to tell… sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well…

A present-day word on this section of The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale, as I now have the luxury of presenting this with the perspective of the twenty years that have passed since its initial release. At that time, liquor was a fun and mostly harmless aspect of my life – I played up drinking more than I actually drank because it was the province of tortured poets and self-destructive writers – it carried the decadent glamour of ruin that calls to most artists at one point or another. It may have cast a spell, but I was eagerly and willingly spell-struck. I also felt, quite correctly as it turns out (but not even I trusted in it at the moment), that I could shake off the spell whenever I really wanted to do so. 

A man can tell a thousand lies
I’ve learned my lesson well
Hope I live to tell the secret I have learned till then it will burn inside of me…

It would be easy, and somewhat accurate, to blame such a growing use of alcohol at the time to all sorts of reasons and circumstances. I could point to genetics: my heart still shudders when it recalls the night my Mom told me her father had died an alcoholic. I wasn’t more than twelve or thirteen at the time, and it was the first crack in the crumbling visage of family perfection I’d been raised to believe. I could point to the calamity that growing up gay in a small town in upstate New York in the 1980’s and being raised as a strict Catholic was. I could point to any number of things that led to my embracing any sort of escape possible, including a lifelong social anxiety that no one seemed to notice despite my repeated and desperate cries for help. But none of that is helpful, and ultimately the only person responsible for me as an adult was myself. 

If I ran away
I’d never have the strength to go very far
How would they hear the beating of my heart?
Will it grow cold, the secret that I hide?
Will I grow old?
How will they hear?
When will they learn?
How will they know?

Those were demons I couldn’t acknowledge in my twenties, and this fun cocktail photo shoot was only the first glimmer of my attempt to face up to the part alcohol was playing in my life. It came under the guise of glamour, of the antics of a demanding diva, of a fabulous night out and a cuttingly-witty bit of repartee that downplayed any underlying seriousness. 

It sacrificed and delayed any substantive improvement or evolution. 

But the drinks were so pretty, and the accessories so fine, that the sleight of divine hand lifted the fairy along his journey. 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
16. Cocktail Cocktale: Part One.

During the creation and execution of The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale (2004 to 2005) my brother was living in Miami, Florida, and I made a couple of visits to see him. That Miami vibe crept into some aspects of the fairy’s tale, as evidenced by the photos here, taken by photographer Dennis Dean. 

Dennis and I had corresponded back when my website was just taking off, and he was gracious enough to do a photo shoot on one of my visits. My brother drove us to his home, where we took some photos, and Dennis asked my brother to join in for some of the shoot, which was fun (I was completely floored that my brother was game for it). Miami had long passed the crest of its mid-90’s cool factor, and I was already almost aged out of the club scene by then (not that I was ever even into any club scene), so it was amusing to simply witness it from a distance. There were other things that attracted my interest then, such as the tropical plants that grew so casually outside, or the mesmerizing pull of the ocean just across the street from the Art Deco stretch of hotels. 

I would return there on an official Divine Diva Tour stop, carrying this cumbersome binder of a tour book with me. Miami has its darker underside too, but that’s a different tale for a different project. 

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One and Part Two.

Many hats were worn for The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale, literally and figuratively, as they’ve been worn for my whole life. Does a shifting image make it easier to narrow down who you might be, or only add confusion to the mix? Does trying on different guises help us select which paths we take, or merely delay the inevitable crawl into our true selves? And how many selves might we find in a single lifetime?

“I was just, as a child, very different from the others, and didn’t really care what they thought because you know, a child doesn’t really have inhibitions; you sort of gain your inhibitions later.” ~ Philip Treacy

“The personality of the wearer and the hat makes the hat.” ~ Philip Treacy

“I remember in the early nineties people saying the hat was just for old women, but that’s ridiculous.” ~ Philip Treacy

“Hats are radical; only people that wear hats understand that.” ~ Philip Treacy

“How a hat makes you feel is what a hat is all about.” ~ Philip Treacy

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 
15. Rock Out, Cock Out/ Hang Out, Wang Out: Part One.

A turn into the stereotypically-masculine (read: toxic, if we’d used such terms twenty years ago) marks this shift in The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale. After the powder-blue doll posts (and one milky interlude) this gives the sort of attitude that is more laughable than formidable, which is the perfect tone for a project that found me at my most unintentionally hilarious. 

“Irony has seeped into the felt of any fedora hat I have ever owned – not out of any wish of mine, but out of necessity. A fedora hat worn by me without the necessary protective irony would eat through my head and kill me.” ~ George W. S. Trow

“There are very few moments in a man’s existence when he experiences so much ludicrous distress, or meets with so little charitable commiseration, as when he is in pursuit of his own hat.” ~ Charles Dickens

“Cock your hat – angles are attitudes.” ~ Frank Sinatra

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
14. A Milky Interlude 

Watching Madonna sip milk from a bowl like a cat was an indelible image from her ‘Express Yourself’ video, and it’s a scene that stayed with me up until this day. Coupled with the ‘Got milk?‘ ad campaign from my youth, this Divina Diva interlude switches us back into traditionally masculine mode – a recurring motif of stereotypical gender ideas twisted or flipped in some way. 

“I write in order to attain that feeling of tension relieved and function achieved which a cow enjoys on giving milk.” ~ H. L. Mencken

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.

When last we left The Divine Diva Tour Book: A Fairy’s Tale, I’d unlocked the comical key to making bad drag and ridiculous scenes work in a way that touched on fantasy, glamour and fun, and finally allowed me not to take myself too seriously. That lesson was one of the most lasting and important from the project, and I’m not sure if it actually sunk in until all these years later. Two decades gives one a more accurate take on how things really played out. Only with the perspective of time do we see some things in their genuine light. 

And so we revisit this platinum-ringleted diva in her natural state, primping or prepping for some fabulous time on the town, or making plans for a party she is about to host. 

A diva’s life requires meticulous planning and careful consideration of every potential move. It is one giant chess game, and end result of which is to look like it is a carefree and effortless existence. Ease and style, grace and panache, and all of it without the slightest outward concern. 

As with most diva antics, things rarely work out to the level of perfectionism she so badly wants to command. Such disappointment leads to demands… and exclamations of outrage when things don’t go her way. 

She thinks everyone gets the act, that they see through the outrage to the fear and hurt, then she hopes they never do, and screams a little louder. 

A diva shouts loudly into the void of a dead phone line, and our tale pauses for laughter. At the same time, a little line of doubt begins to thread its way into the narrative. Not all is powder-blue perfection and confection, and the underbelly of all this faux fur splendor reveals its vulnerabilities. Still, she screams… still, we laugh…

Then, another twist, another swing, and a sudden disturbing smile.

When a diva smiles like this, it’s best to run.

As fast and far as you can.

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.
13. Powder Blue Fur Doll: Part One and Part Two.

Shooting this section of the Divine Diva Tour came with the unexpected price I had to pay here. It was the hefty price of shame and humiliation, and the pay-off was a hearty dose of laughter at my own expense – a lesson worth more than anyone could ever afford. But there was something more serious at work, and upon this turn of our Fairy’s Tale the kaleidoscopic nature of the project comes into better focus. This marks about the tenth persona/image featured in The Divine Diva Tour, and it is here where we see that one of the main tenets of the project is its shifting nature: the masks and guises we wear, the characters we play and inhabit, all of whom work together to make us the singular presence the world thinks it knows us to be. 

‘Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony, that’s life
Tryin to make ends meet, you’re a slave to money then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah…

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I’m here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I’m a million different people
From one day to the next
I can’t change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
(Have you ever been down?)

Well, I’ve never prayed but tonight I’m on my knees, yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there’s nobody singin’ to me now

No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I’m here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I’m a million different people
From one day to the next
I can’t change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
(Have you ever been down?)
I can’t change, oh, no
I can’t change, oh

‘Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony, that’s life
Tryin to make ends meet, tryna find somebody then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah

You know I can change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I’m here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I’m a million different people
From one day to the next

I can’t change my mold
No, no, no, no, no

I can’t change my mold
No, no, no, no, no,
I can’t change my mold, no, no, no, no

It’s just sex and violence, melody and silence
It’s just sex and violence, melody and silence
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down

~ The Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy’s Tale ~

1. Pink Frilly Fairy: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three
2. Homage to Herb: Part One, Part Two and Part Three
3. A Purple-Hued Interlude
4. Style & Panache: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
5. Purple Puff Confection: Part One, Part Two, Part Three and Part Four.
6. A Blue-Hued Interlude
7. Fuchsia Fabulousness: Part One. Part Two and Part Three.
8. Bad Boy Bangs: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
9. Vanity Under Where: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
10. Sugar Plum Ballerina: Part One, Part Two, and Part Three.
11. A Pool Frolic: Part One, Part Two. and Part Three.
12. A Cemetery Interlude: Part One and Part Two.