Cleopatra Whispers Down the Nile

When Emi was originally entertaining summer theme ideas, she wanted to incorporate some element of Egyptian flair and Cleopatra vibes. We have reached that turn after a Solid Gold start, and our golden glory will thread its way through this Egyptian excursion along the Nile. We begin with a fragrance, as Egyptian as anything we’ll ever conjure here, and in keeping with the lighter touch of Cleopatra aspects. Sur de Nil was reportedly created with the inspiration of the Nile River running tranquilly in the background. It’s a lovely soft beginning for our own Egyptian journey here, which turns the soundtrack around in eclectic fashion worthy of my occasionally-eclectic niece. She takes after her fun Uncle in that way (and several others). And so we tip-toe into the pyramids, into a land of sand and sunlight, heat and papyrus and the sound of water running along like the sole savior it has become.

Do not speak to me of Queens and Kings, whisper only of love and beauty. Crowns and titles never impressed anyone around here, contrary to popular assumption. Still, pomp and circumstance passes the time, and we humans are notoriously in need of entertainment and amusement, so let us aim to enthrall you with this turn on our summer journey. There are palm trees swaying in the warm breeze, and a romantic aspect of night that pulls you along the with the current of the river.

“All strange and terrible events are welcome, but comforts we despise.” – Cleopatra

The conundrum of summer: such glorious atmosphere, such dark nights, such tease and please and unease. We find a way in the dizzying sunlight, only to forget the path by the time we wake from an afternoon nap. Dangers and delights alike, and no one could ever really tell the difference depending on how the shadows appear. Summer tempting, summer limiting, summer its own diabolical sphinx, impossible to riddle any sort of sense or meaning, and still we yearn, still we strive, still we grasp at the asp intent only on getting out alive, on seeking its own survival.

“I rested my temples on the breast of temptation, and put my neck voluntarily under her yoke of flowers; I tasted her cup. The pillow was burning: there is an asp in the garland: the wine has a bitter taste: her promises are hollow- her offers false. I see and know all this.” – Charlotte Bronte

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Dazzler of the Day: Jason Leigh Winter

Birthday boy Jason Leigh Winter gets the only kind of gift I can give to him, which is a crowning as Dazzler of the Day. A social media star and West End triple-threat, Winter recently turned heads in the celebrated production of ‘Hercules’ as it dazzled the London theater scene. More impactful seems to be his beloved social media posts, which largely feature him dancing to requested songs and reminding us of the joy still to be found in the simplest acts of showmanship.

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Furry, Fuzzy Fabulousness

The floral fuzziness of these Salvia blooms are different from all the other Salvia varieties in our backyard, which makes these a little extra special. I’m not sure if the hummingbirds (and hummingbird moths, should we be so lucky) prefer this sort of fuzz or not – people are divided over fur so I imagine animals might be as well. Personally, I love the fuzzy outer coat on exhibit here – life is about texture and sensual delights. Try some, feel one…

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That Sinister Summer Place

This poem is an excerpt from ‘House of Leaves’ by Mark Z. Danielewski, which has a haunted/haunting quality which is exemplified in this selection. It seems initially like a summer poem, albeit one with a dark side, but it turns into something much more sinister, the way summer sometimes reveals its hideous underbelly. Summer’s flowers only bloom when their roots have access to the dirt and muck and minerals. You can’t have one without the other – summer knows that better than anyone. The poem, then, to haunt your day… and night.

That Place

Summer broke on the backs of children

even though swings performed miracles

and breezes sang psalms.

For that summer, from the outskirts

of some far off even whimsical place

came the low resolute moo of a dragon.

A child, of course, could not recognize that fabled moo

or the serpentine tail close to her feet

wound up among the thistle and milkweed

like a hose.

Nor for that matter could she recognize

the starry white bone left upright in the sandbox

like some remarkable claw

or shovel.

Not when the sun was out and games continued.

Certainly not when there was summer love

and rootbeer.

But at dusk when the fog crept in,

thick and sweating

suggesting some kind of burning far off,

down over there,

(where someone once saw two eyes

– pale as October moons –

blink)

a child could know the meaning

of fall.

And that August, two weeks before school began,

some children went down to that place

and they never came back.

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Taming This Beast

This book was recommended to me by someone whose taste I admire and respect, so I eagerly dove into it only to be driven back by daunting footnotes, multiple narratives, and an impenetrable darkness that was as intriguing as it was terrifying when I let my mind follow its dangerous course of descent. That made for one of the most challenging reads I’ve had in many years, one that haunted me at times in the best of ways, and one that I’m sure only gleaned a small percentage of what was intended.

‘House of Leaves’ was written by Mark Z. Danielewski with painstaking detail and wonderfully-intricate complexity, offering a multi-media maze of descriptive and sometimes meandering prose that fully engulfs the reader in a world of claustrophobic yet endless tunnels of possibility, darkness, terror and loss. It tells the tale of a house that contains a door leading to an endless space of darkness and seemingly-impossible expansive dimension, the family that has moved in and is experiencing this space, along with narratives of a documentary on the experience and those who have analyzed and been touched by the dangerous story in their own way. It’s a reminder of the lethal power of an idea when it gets seeded in the brain and begins to grow.

Like its labyrinthine subject matter, the book is a veritable deep-dive into multiple tunnels and narratives, each winding along a sketchy edge where what is real or possible pushes against what we thought we understood to be impossible. At times, I found it difficult to follow, but rather than give up, I pushed through, taking the words and the footnotes as they came, being sure to read everything, even when it didn’t seem to make sense, and even by the end I’m not entirely sure if I got anywhere near to everything that was expressed. That seems to be part of the point too, and perhaps if I’d come closer to truly understanding it I’d be a little closer to a darkness my heart might not find comfortable or enjoyable. There’s enough darkness in the real world to more than adequately deliver such dangers. This book is an entertaining glimpse into the mysteries of the mind, and all that they might unleash if you’re not careful.

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A Cheeky Mid-July Blog Recap

Has this been an exceedingly wild and crazy summer even when not much has actually happened? It feels that way to me, though it’s quite possible (and highly likely) that it’s all in my head. That doesn’t make it any more or less fun – merely an observation of mine. On with this weekly blog recap

A modern-day Madonna milestone, as she scores her 10th number one album with ‘Confessions II’.

A splendiferous summer’s day before the sky started to burn.

Our mocktail of the summer is this orange concoction, lovingly named ‘The Golden Shower’.

A bouquet of oregano reveals another pretty use for this herb.

The yolk of a daisy, a.k.a. the eye of a day.

As previously mentioned, the sky started to burn from the fires in Canada.

Pool ruminations in one’s underwear, as one does.

Summer darkness and intimacy still reside in the sunny season.

An icebox cake recipe for those who are wisely leaving the oven off this week.

Getting wet with water tableaux.

A Friday night fern for viewing ease and pleasure.

Cloudbusting is a song by Kate Bush, a blog post, and a term meaning… something.

A queen up close is sometimes just as enchanting as a queen from afar.

Pause for dramatic effect, and new glasses.

The very first tomato harvest of the season is always a happy event for my mouth.

My favorite donut shop is better than any basic bitch out there.

A simple Sunday night post in shades of lavender.

Dazzlers of the Day included Patrick ‘Patch’ Hyde and Edward Delling-Williams.

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A Rose of Sharon Cloaked in Lavender

A striking shade for a Rose of Sharon plant to have, this lavender-hued beauty is in bloom in downtown Albany a couple of blocks from my office building, so I get to visit it on lunch when it’s not 100 degrees outside. It’s a happy visage for a lazy Sunday night in summer, so I’m sharing it with you now. Enjoy.

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Best Donut Shop Ever

These glorious creations are from my favorite donut shop in the world: Bitchin’ Donuts.

I love it for the name, I love it for the messages, and I love it for the delicious donuts.

At its heart, it’s all about the donut, which in this case is astoundingly good. With gluten-free options that taste as good as (and sometimes better) than their inspiration, they offer an amazing variety of new and intriguing spins on classic flavor combinations. My favorite is the Bitchin’ Creme – a brilliant take-off on the Boston Creme – and I’ve sampled a Neapolitan donut that was like a decadent cherry cordial, and a crazy-good orange-cardamom donut that had the epic message seen in these photos. (And I whole-heartedly support this message.)

After a devastating fire at their Lark Street location, they are now operating at 540 Delaware Ave and 2008 Central Ave in Colonie – both much more convenient for parking. The only warning I have is that these can quickly become a bit addictive – hence a recent pair of weekend trips – and they often sell-out, so get there early.

Check out their website here for more deliciousness.

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The Very First Harvest of the Season

This new variety of cherry tomato (whose specific name has been lost to my insistence on throwing out the label much too early in the season) has started ripening – and it’s delicious. I always forget how good homegrown tomatoes taste compared to the flavorless supermarket objects we find in the winter here. The tomato is the culinary embodiment of summer in these parts – a giddy taste and force of nature that reminds me of how lovely the sunny season can be, especially in the mouth.

Dad taught me how to grow tomatoes, and for the past several years I’ve put them in pots on the back patio and they’ve been delivering. The cherry tomatoes are the most reliable, so that’s what I’ve focused on lately. The two pots going now are beginning to mature and ripen and the bounty is just around the corner.

A beautiful sight to behold.

The promise of something to come…

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Pause for Dramatic Effect

Sitting up in the attic far later than I should be awake, I write these words directly into this blog post. It won’t go up for a few days, and in that detachment and removal from immediacy, I feel emboldened and brave enough to reveal just a little more of myself than I typically might. Lately, I’ve been writing these entries into a notebook, all by hand, then typing them in later along with any necessary editing. It feels more meaningful to write it out longhand, if anyone even knows what longhand is anymore. I’m not even sure I do. Sometimes I just say words because they sound right, and I’m usually good about placing them where they belong, even if I’m doubtful of what they may actually mean. There, a little reveal, a little strip-tease, one that will find you trying to catch me out soon, and I will deserve it.

Jesus saves, and Bubba scores
A childhood you’ll always mourn
You found your things out on the floor now
And you believed in every maybe
Shalala, it drove you crazy
Tough as nails and built for breaking

But you were just a kid when they told you
You’d been born to bleed, little soldier
With your garden heart and sentimental boulder
Oh, it pulled you down
Look at you, you made it out

Yes, I had a garden heart. Still do. The garden has always been the place of peace and healing and learning – and the most interesting thing in the world to me ever since I was a little boy. It’s been a haven and a space of hope, where I learned heartbreak and heaven, sometimes at the exact same time. It set me apart from other boys, as did so much else. That dark trip back won’t be made tonight – I’m skirting the deeper shit until we make it out of retrograde motion.

Now it’s time to go, it’s time to chase it
Break the locks out of the basement
Rearview mirror to the faithless
And you believed in every maybe
Shalala, I love you, baby
Told them all you were good at breaking

Going around the gardens every day is my favorite way to ground myself during the sunny season. It’s a good mental health break – and any time spent offline or away from a computer screen or television is time well-spent. The removal of such stimulation is more powerful than most people realize, it allows for a re-charge, and the chance to be thrilled again when heightened stimulation arrives. Lower your expectations. Shift your pleasure perspective. Refine your acceptance.

But you were just a kid when they told you
You’d been born to bleed, little soldier
With your magnet heart and sentimental boulder
Oh, it pulled you down
But look at you, you made it out

Born to bleed with a sentimental boulder? Were we all such terrorized children? Why do I remember being more resilient before I was aware of myself? A small part of me wants to explain what that means, but it’s late, and a larger part of me wants to sleep. These lyrics hit harder than the music.

Yeah, you’re just like the rain
Carrying everyone’s shame
But you move just like a river
No, you don’t wear an inch of it, babe
I’d follow you down, down, down, down, down to the water
Way down to any kind of chance
To a stone in a creek
‘Til you’re out of the blue
Honey, I can see it too

Rather than say more about that, or offer an explanation for the title of this post (which was originally supposed to be a look at my creative process, as I’ve started the first part of my next project) I’m going to wrap things up since we are winding the song down. This was going to be a break in the Solid Gold Summer run with a glasses-and-all look at what really goes on in the summer. A dramatic pause if you will, then the music speaks to the soul again… and our Solid Gold swing shall return shortly.

‘Cause I was just a kid when they showed me
This great big weight that would come and pull me
Like your magnet heart and sentimental boulder
I carry it with you, throw it on my shoulders
You’re the one way out and I’m your dark horse clown
Isimo, look at you, you made it out

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A Queen Up Close

Filipendula rubra is a robust and towering plant, reaching heights up to eight feet in conditions it likes (wet feet and sun) – and is topped by fluffy plumes of pink flowers at this time of the year, earning it the nickname ‘Queen of the Prairie’. While the effect is grand from a distance, it’s even more enchanting when viewed up close, which is the main point of this post.

I’ve had a mixed history with this plant in the garden, and it’s my own fault as a plant will only do what a plant can do in its situation. This hasn’t been situated or cultivated in the way it deserves, so when it does come into bloom I’m grateful and guilty at once.

Do I have the time or space to set it up properly this season? Likely not, so enjoy these blooms while they’re here.

Macro beauty from a Queen.

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Cloudbusting

Someone once explained the phenomenon of cloudbusting to me, but I don’t think I fully grasped it. Even after some online seeking, I still don’t feel like I understand it any better. Usually that prompts further research, deeper dives, or the start of a quest – this time I’m content with the mystery, accepting of the lack of understanding, reconciled to the not fully knowing. That’s a new stance for me, and a refreshing one. Removing mystery never did add anything of value to life’s charming aspects – if anything, it made them less charming. Maybe Kate Bush does a better job of explaining without reducing things to a series of dull facts.

I still dream of Orgonon
I wake up crying
You’re making rain
And you’re just in reach
When you and sleep escape me

You’re like my yo-yo that glowed in the dark
What made it special made it dangerous
So I bury it and forget

But every time it rains, you’re here in my head
Like the sun coming out
Ooh, I just know that something good is gonna happen
I don’t know when, but just saying it could even make it happen

On top of the world
Looking over the edge
You could see them coming
You looked too small in their big, black car
To be a threat to the men in power

I hid my yo-yo in the garden
I can’t hide you from the government
Oh, God, daddy, I won’t forget

Then again, maybe Kate Bush won’t explain away the riddles, maybe she is only here to posit more questions, raise more doubts, spin more wild stories that go on to spin even more stories from themselves. This song doesn’t even go with our Solid Gold summer theme, but as a wise person once wrote, a foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds. This post doesn’t really go well with summer either – it’s a bit too somber, a bit too serious, a bit too emblematic of the madness attempting to swirl within my head – though I’m doing my damnedest not to let it take control. There is a mindfulness to that which might be my own way out, if I’m to ever get out of this alive. And who ever really gets out of life alive? In the end, I mean.

‘Cause every time it rains you’re here in my head
Like the sun coming out
Ooh, I just know that something good is gonna happen
I don’t know when, but just saying it could even make it happen

And every time it rains you’re here in my head
Like the sun coming out
Look, your son’s coming out
Ooh, I just know that something good is gonna happen
I don’t know when, but just saying it could even make it happen

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Friday Night Fern

A fern for your Friday night fun. After the age of 50, Friday night fun unfurls differently, not unlike the frond of a fern – gently, quietly, beautifully. What calls to me now is deeper, more resonant for the soul, and it has nothing to do with FOMO or being seen or burning oneself into the break of the next day. It also has nothing to do with being online or engaging on social media, so excuse me while I step back into the world outside – the only world that matters.

Happy Friday!

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Water Tableaux

Water collects in the cup of a purple bloom.

The leaves beneath the flower hold water too.

Despite the excessive temps, there is something cooling about these tableaux, the way the sound of running water seems to cool the atmosphere. 

Mind games

Head tricks

Mental gymnastics

Anything to alleviate the heat of the day. 

Summer and the stultifying warmth conspire to pause all in their path, and I’m happy to stop if it means some relief.

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An Icebox Cake For a Summer Dinner

When it gets to be this hot for this long, the best sort of cooking to do is that which requires no stove or oven or even microwave. Enter the icebox cake. A bit campy, a bit retro, and a whole lotta sugar adds up to a no-bake dessert that tastes like someone worked up a sweat when really it’s all about the assembly and some maneuvering of the stand mixer. When we invited Suzie and her family over for a Sunday dinner, I decided to make another attempt at perfecting this recipe after a questionable version I served to my niece and nephew (the best guinea pigs since Chester and Cookie).

The same concept that forms the base of this Magnolia Bakery Banana Pudding recipe is at work for the icebox cake: a solid cookie is transformed into a soft cake-like consistency after several hours mingling with a pudding/cream concoction. This time around, I used a recipe for Biscoff cookies and Biscoff butter, which I ended up modifying because I wasn’t happy with an initial test run. (I replaced the cream cheese with mascarpone, and used homemade whipped cream rather than a store bought ‘whipped topping’ – both changes made for a vast improvement, as did some additional ‘soak’ time, which took away the crunchy edge that some of the cookies retained with just a few hours in the fridge.) If you need a solid summer dessert and don’t want to heat up the kitchen, try this one out. 

(Upon further contemplation, I may save this one for the fall and holiday season, as the spicy ginger flavors of the Biscoff elements align better with the cozy comforts of that time.)

INGREDIENTS

2  8.8 oz packages Biscoff cookies
13.4 oz jar Biscoff cookie butter
5.1 oz box instant vanilla pudding mix
3 cups of 2% milk
½ cup butter, softened
8 oz cream cheese, softened (I used 8 oz of mascarpone and this was so much better)
1 cup powdered sugar divided into two halves
3 cups heavy or whipping cream 

METHOD

In a large bowl, add vanilla pudding mix and whisk in milk until combined. Put in fridge to set (can do the night before).
In another bowl, beat together butter, cream cheese or mascarpone, and ½ cup powdered sugar until combined – about 2 minutes. 
In stand mixer, whip heavy cream and ½ cup powdered sugar until desired whopped cream consistency. 
Blend vanilla pudding mix with mascarpone mix, then fold in whipped cream mix until well incorporated. 
Drop 1/3 of pudding/cream mix into 9 x 13 casserole dish, then add one layer of Biscoff cookies in bottom of casserole dish in single layer.
Spoon cookie butter into a microwaveable glass measuring cup, heat in 20 second intervals until melted, stirring as you go. Drizzle 1/3 cookie butter over cookies.
Add another 1/3 of pudding/cream mix on top of cookie, then repeat layer of cookies and drizzle another 1/3 cookie butter over them, and add last 1/3 of whipped mix. Drizzle with remaining cookie butter and sprinkle with crushed Biscoff cookies as desired.
Refrigerate at least overnight to ensure a soft consistency.

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