When all the guests have departed and the fancy cocktail glasses have been carefully washed by hand and put away, a musical moment of calm descends as a song plays us into the end of the evening. The bouquet of flowers is still as fresh as when the night began; the candles have diminished slightly in height, and their smoke will soon be all that lingers in the air. It is a moment of afterglow, only ever-so-slightly tinged with remorse that it had arrived at an end.
The scent of a blown-out candle will always be gloriously imbued with ambivalence for me – sacred incense of good company and bonhomie, coupled with the sad yet full regret of a lovely evening having come to an inevitable close.
We are not granted an infinite number of such nights, and I have learned not to take a single one of them for granted – each is a singular gift, never to be replicated or repeated, never to be had again, so I do my best to be present and mindful for all of them.
When the heart approaches fullness we come closest to brushing up against the sublime, and the sublime is often best experienced with good company. At the end of an evening, when all the guests have gone and the candles have been blown out, I sit in the dim living room, listening to Andy finish loading the dishwasher, watching the kitchen lights go out. He is still my favorite company, my treasured comfort, and the very best way to finish an evening.
